I have many internal struggles on what I should be posting and what I would rather not. As I have mentioned before, some things, if you break them down to their core, feel little more than desparate cries for attention. I get this a lot when posting pictures of myself, or when I’m even considering doing it. Really, what’s the message behind posting your picture online for everyone to see, especially through a medium like Facebook that shoves them into everyone’s faces, almost forcing them to press the like button on them? I just can’t connect this behaviour to anything people do in real life, except for things I generally despise in people. If you step back just a little bit and actually think about what you’re doing when posting a picture, the semiotics of it, what reaction you intend to evoke in your “viewers” and what psychological need you seek to fulfil in yourself, you might get it the same way I do. Then again, maybe it’s one of those things you either see or you don’t, like the fact that whenever you ride the bus or carry your stuff from the supermarket back home in a plastic bags, what you’re really using is really really old and infinitely compressed dinosaur matter.
Anyway, even though I know what I’m about to post directly contradicts all the above, I thought it would be a good introduction, if only for me to feel a little bit better with myself; “maybe I’m posting these pics, but at least I’m not shoving them in everybody’s face! I’m being discreet and allowing for people to discover it themselves! I’m so special!”
There you go then: I shaved my head and beard. It’s been more than two weeks now but the effect is still there. I did it because I’d wanted to do it for years and now, being in Sofia and having to answer to the fewest people about why I did it, seemed like the perfect opportunity. That, and I wanted to get rid of my own self-cut hair, which, the more it grew, the more it revealed the abomination of its own existence.
A very interesting outcome of this experiment was that everyone, or almost everyone, who was telling me that I shouldn’t do it, was later telling me that it actually suits me. Says a lot about the influence others have on our decisions, doesn’t it? Most of the time, none of us are able to realise, either, how little people back their own words, but what a difference they may have already made in the lives of all involved.
Next step: what will my hair and beard look like in a month from now and what will be the difference in their length be? Further experimentation on this human body!
O_o Κάτι είχε πάρει το μάτι μου στο skype αλλά λέω ας μην το πιστέψω. Δεν το περίμενα να το δω ποτε από σένα αυτό αλλά…Να που το είδαμε και αυτό δεν μπορώ να πω ότι σου πάει αλλά ότι σε ευχαριστεί.
*cries* φυσικό κασκόλ……….